&the greying vision

Tuesday, April 18, 2006 9:02 PM

just browsed thru feli's blog. yes i agreed to what she've said. quoted from feli's blog: "u say u had family prob result u in not trusting anyone .....''

i've got comment on tht too. yes, indeed i came from a single family. since young i've never seen my dad until pri 2. yes p2. before tht, i've been seeing my mum having heated conflict between my dad. and i've personally seen her cried in front of my own eyes. it was depressing, indeed depressing. when i was p3. they divorced. since young, i bet anyone of you would talk to ur dad at least 10 sentence. yes, 10 sentence. what i've known myself is i din even managed to talk to him more than 5 sentence. i think all of u would think tht is very exagrating. but indeed it's true. i've seen him only TWICE.? now, i din even know if he's alive or dead and i've totally forgotten how he looks like. yes. i din know. but what could i do. in sleepless nights, similar to other children. i've thought why i din have a dad since young. i teared. but i finanly got to know the answer when i grew older and i knew how to think of these stuff. also, whenever i see children when dad, i feel happy for them. yes. they could have the love i couldn't have forever. FOREVER. those days could never be found. days passed, i grew old. i don't need his love. yes dad's love. so pls ppl. when your dad is still around, talk to them. at least you guys are more lucky den me. you still have got the chance to talk to him. okies.?

the problems between my biologic parents are trust too. yes, trust. the word tht affect our lives much. the word tht sparked off our conflict. but it doesn't lead to the fact tht i don't trust in ppl. ironically, i trust ppl too easily. (using a neutral tone) so, what is the right the you could say that it's because of family matters that allow you not to trust people?

these things, i din tell anyone. but i blog here, is to allow you to know family is not the sole problem that results to distrust.
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sorry peeps. forgive me for the quite english writing although is still not perfect. im trying to lessen my gramma mistake and use wide range of vocabulary. my reason for tht is im having a english compo test the following day. =S i could freak out man! =D so terrifying.! my first compo test in my sec5. =D

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speech day is approaching! =D the day i've been longing for. yesh, it's gonna reach! i seriously will have a fun time there. last year of speech day, im gonna enjoy like nobody business. taking photos with all my dears. =D
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tht's all i've got to say man! =D and i love my dears. without you gals, i wouldnt be so strong! =D and BIANCA, JOLING, SIHUA ROCKS. YOU ARE SO CUTE.! BUT I AM SO ADORABLE! =D

`cindy

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